there are no words...


I have been sitting, staring at this computer screen trying to put into words emotions and feelings that are unfathomable.  Everything seems so trite and just not full enough.

The truth is we are not supposed to be able to grasp yesterday's tragedy in Connecticut.  We are not supposed to have to put words to the utter shock of such an unthinkable act.

 It is not supposed to be like this...but we live in a dark, fallen world.

 My heart breaks for those families that have to deal with this senseless, horrific act of violence personally.  My prayers have been unceasing since the news first broke. 

I sat in the audience of my grandsons Christmas performance last night with tears in my eyes.

This is what it's supposed to be a world filled with light and hope.  Children should be fidgeting with clothes, trying to stand still, enjoying their new shoes and singing about the birth of our Savior.

The unthinkable thought ran through my mind, as I'm sure it's run through yours.  What if...

I don't have to tell you to hug your family tighter, tell them you love them and thank God for the blessing of one more Christmas together.

And pray...

xo, Patty


  1. I have a 5 year old grandson. The events of yesterday rocked me to the core. I cried many hours over this senseless act. I definately held his tight yesterday. 3 of my children are teachers and they are trying to remain professional, yet compassionate to their students to talk about this terrible event.
    blessings to you

  2. So true Patty. My daughter a school physchologist in the Columbine School District tells me "You can't figrue out crazy." I think that is true. Although we think that we have to know why. So sad. Looking at the sweet little ones with your grandson......sure hits home doesn't it. My grandchildren are 3, 4, 6, 6, 6, and precious and innocent.
    Prayers for everyone involved.

  3. I ran through the what ifs...My family lives in a small Connecticut town, not so different from Newtown. Hard not to focus on what if. My heart breaks for the families and the town.

  4. There are no words . . . just so sad for the little ones, parents, grandparents, school chums, teachers, everyone . . . such a sad day . . .
    Thanks for the "sweater fidget". . . . Gave me a smile!

  5. It is such a horrific act. One senseless act that affects the whole nation. That was the aim I suppose in his sick thinking. The
    real heartbreak is for the children who survived who will never, ever feel safe again. I teach preschoolers and think how horrible
    that is. My children in my class depend on me for comfort, learning and their safety.... Incredible... I, too, lift all those in prayer.
    May the feel a slight comfort in knowing the nation grieves with them.

  6. I hear you, Patty. There is no way to figure it way to make sense of such senselessness. I am glad you enjoyed your concert last night. I am spending the day with my precious grand (kindergartener) and I will hug her extra tight a few times today- xo Diana

  7. Patty...just like you, I stared at my computer, stunned. I think it is lovely that you shared your grandson's Christmas performance. I can only imagine the emotion in the room.
    My husband and I were in tears as we watched the news last night.

  8. You're right..There are no words..So very sad..

  9. There are no words of comfort. It's unspeakable what has happened in Newtown. God Bless them all. May they rest in peace.

  10. i've a 4 years old.. i'm still trembling...

  11. Patty, you are so right. No words. Just pain in the heart. Loving on my lil 4 & 5 yr old granddaughters all weekend.

    Patty, your grandson put a big smile on my face! He is such a precious little boy!

    Xoxo Carolyn

  12. Patty, There are no right answers. Talking about it, fumbling for a way to put it, writing it down, is how we come to terms with the most unimaginable and horrific events. Thanks for your post. Bonnie

  13. It's so sad. Almost unbelievable. There is just no answer or motive that can justify his actions.


  14. thanks for sharing these cute pictures of your grandson Patty :) heartbroken we are, but I could only dwell on this verse this weekend...

    From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint...lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Psalm. sixty one. two ♥


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