FINDING YOURSELF - let's chat

Good morning my friends.  It's hard to believe that it's only been a week since we last visited but it has.  So much has happened to me internally and I have been looking forward to this post all week but now suddenly I am staring at a blank screen wondering where in the world to start.  Don't worry, I won't start at the beginning, ha, ha!

If you've been following me on facebook or instagram (it's just easiest share bite size nuggets on
those two platforms right now) you already know a lot of what I'm going to share today but since this blog will always be my first social media love, I wanted to share here as well.

When we last met I was contemplating the meaning of life...well not quite all of existence but at the very least the meaning of my current life situation.

I am trusting human nature runs true with all of us and that you find yourselves at that crossroad from time to time, as well.  Sometimes there will be major life events that propel us there and other times it can just be a gradual build up of junk and we wake up one morning wondering what happened to us...the real, authentic person that we know we were created to be.

For me it was a combination of the two this time, while the feeling has been stirring for a while now, the catalyst came last week as I was cleaning out my craft studio to make way for a dressing room and office area.  As I was removing my paints and artist paper from my little student desk to make room for my make up and magnified, lighted mirror, it hit me how far I had strayed from the creative being that I was meant to be.  Now don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with  having a designated makeup area if that is where your heart is, but deep down in my very soul I knew that while I enjoy make up and clothes, my heart beats fastest when my fingers are covered in art paints and not foundation.

You see, we were all created to be different, (there is nothing revolutionary in that fact) I think what happened to me was that I let those little squares of social media influence me more than I should have.  I fell into the comparison trap and buckled up for a bumpy ride.  It's not that I was espousing things that were not true...I still think presenting your best self is important and I still think getting dressed in cute clothes is fun and there is room and and even a necessity for having many interests, but I let a side interest become my main focus.  I got distracted from being who I was created to be.

Because my faith is at the core of who I am, I always turn to the Word of God to get my bearings.  So this week has been filled with much soul searching and time just sitting still.  As usual while I sat my mind came up with a number of new projects and ideas but now is not the time for me to act, now is the time for me to sit and wait and refresh and fill up and prepare and I know when the time is right, to move forward with the next chapter of my creatively inspired life.  God has been faithful in a big way to meet me in the stillness and to disperse his loving words as a salve to my weary and hungry soul and the joy in life is returning full force.

Thanks for joining me here today.  My hope is to be back next Saturday to share a bit more, maybe even add a decorating post or two along the way because amongst the quiet times are times of painting, sewing and rearranging, too.  I have to be honest, no pressure or deadlines is feeling pretty good right now.

How was your week?

xo, Patty