When I left the work force nearly four years ago, after working outside the home for nearly 30 years and dreaming of being a stay at home mom, I had a good idea of how I wanted to live my life.  But then reality set in, life happened, time passed and before I knew it my life had little resemblance to the one I had intended on pursuing all those years ago.

Part of that was life throwing me curve balls that I had no control over, but another part of it was me
giving up and giving in when things got a little difficult.  I don't think it was a conscience decision but rather one that I gave way to bit by bit, not realizing the ground that I was losing.

And then a couple of months ago I had one of those light bulb moments that woke me up to what was happening and I made the decision to fight hard for those things I love and esteem and I set about (in my typical type A personality fashion) righting the ship, one project at a time.

Has life fully cooperated with my carefully crafted list? Of course not, but my resolve to be purposeful in how I spend my time (in as much as I can control it) has stayed firm.

A lot of my time has been spent fluffing my nest and bit by bit it is becoming a place I truly love to be.  Is life perfect?  No, not hardly but I'm finding that pursuing the things that make me happy adds joy to those otherwise not so perfect things in life.

And so it has been a good and productive month around here on Lemon Lane.  I have finished quite a few things that have been hanging out on my to do list for a long time (what's scary are the amount of things still left on the list, but that's another story) and I feel more content with my life than I have in a very long time.

And one of the best parts is feeling genuinely excited to share it all with you.  It feels good to be living among the dreamers again.

xo, Patty


  1. Good for you! It's so easy to let everything get away in the daily to do list. Looking forwards to hearing what you're up to :)

  2. Patty,
    Believe it or not, this is exactly what I needed to hear today. Just yesterday I was reading one of Priscella Shirer's books and she was talking about how the enemy loves to steal our passion because that keeps us from being all the God intended for us to be. I believe this to be true! Whether it's finding contentment in our home or elsewhere, he wants nothing more than for us to feel discontented and lose our focus.
    Please keep writing from your heart! It's what keeps me checking in day after day and gives me that boost I need to do the same :)

  3. So glad to hear that , Patty. I look forward to dreaming right along with you.

  4. Hi Patty, I see I have missed some of your posts...sorry honey...cause I really enjoy it. I am glad you are getting things done. That has also happened with me....For the first time in a long time...I am letting go of things that I do not need, can't use and don't really want...you know like those closets of things...some with tags on them for goodness sake. Ted and I have sorted , cleaned, and thrown out much and also donated. It does feel uplifting. Blessings to you sweet girl. Glad you are getting things like you want them. xoxo, Susie

  5. You are so right! Pursuing the things that make us happy a real good source for ongoing joy ♥


  6. Good for you! It's so easy to let general day-to-day stuff get in the way and then suddenly our dreams are a bit too far out of reach. Keep on!

  7. SO happy you are enjoying your time at home.. Nothing like being able to fluff our nest and enjoy it. smile.
    I too, worked 25 yrs, and wished so bad , I could be home and be with my kids and keep my home and be able to create things. Well.. once i got home, i got side tracked, but like you, soon discovered.. I had to "make it happen/and make my time count". best wishes.. and I loved seeing the photos of your home.. so pretty.

  8. A few months ago, I had complete meltdown, and decided enough. I was taking back my life. I too, didn't know how or when I lost control, but indeed, I had. I am so much happier. Patty we mothers, have lived our lives for others. We were not allowed the freedom to be selfish. I have declared this the year of Kris. And so far....I am liking it a lot!
    XO Kris

  9. With my son moving back home, I am feeling totally discombobulated now and like my life isn't my own again. I know his being home won't be "forever" but this is where I am right now. I need to learn to let go...

  10. Patty,
    Believe me when I state, "I understand", dear friend!
    After almost as many years as you retired, I'm finally beginning to do some of the things I enjoy!
    Being firm with family members and friends
    has allowed me to finally "clear my planner" for the creativity I so~o~o need and desire!
    Looking forward to seeing all that is in store for you in the days and months ahead!

  11. Best advice I've heard all week - "resolve to be purposeful".
    Thank you, thank you, thank you

  12. I see you and I retired at about the same time after having worked for 30 years. I am glad you are finding joy in daily life and in fluffing up your surroundings to create a home that gives you pleasure.


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