My life took a turn that I hadn't planned on and I took a few days (okay, almost the entire week) to feel sorry for myself over it.
The very thing I had been so sad over just a few months ago has reversed itself and I was feeling all mopey over it in reverse.
My briefly empty nest is now quite full again. My once quiet mornings are now teaming with life. Poor me, I have to endure giggles and laughter, tears and tantrums, hugs and smiles, watch me's and don't touch that's, all over again.
I hope you know me well enough now to hear the tongue in cheek tone I am saying all that with.
I wish I could say that I was so optimistic about all of it from the start but I wasn't. I was rude and arrogant, disappointed and discouraged, self righteous and self pitying and then I woke up to the fact that I am indeed a blessed woman who was behaving like a spoiled child.
At the height of my selfishness I had a hissy fit to my husband over the fact that the once full gallon of milk was now an empty shell laying in the garbage and I had no milk for my morning coffee. I mean how dare my grandchildren nourish their bodies before I could splash a bit of the white stuff in my cup. Sheesh!
Embarrassing I tell you...embarrassing.
Why does it take seeing ourselves at our worst to make us take a closer look in the mirror? Thankfully, I am over it now. It took me a bit longer than it should have to realize that this was hard on all the parties involved. That things happen in life that cause families to come together and that there is no other place that I would want my grandchildren and daughter to be (until mommy is ready to move out with them on her own) than under our roof.
And just to avoid another hissy fit, I am making sure to keep my little creamer filled with milk hidden in the back of the fridge.
xo, Patty
Patty, We are spoiled are we? LOL. But hey we deserve it. Maybe some dry creamer for an emergency too. Blessings to you and yours, xoxo,Susie
ReplyDeleteDon't be too hard on yourself. That is a big life change. Naturally it caused you to stress!
ReplyDeleteWe are all entitled to have a "hissy fit" every now and then. I keep powdered milk on hand, for when our milk supply is low.
ReplyDeleteSounds like part of being a mother to me. I find myself stressing and fussing every time one of my kids has a bump in their life. We want it to be smooth for them! But you came down, and I'm not surprised. You are a thoughtful woman who tries to do what is right. We all have moments (well ok, or weeks!) where we lose our cool, but you've handled it. Smart move with the hidden creamer ;)
ReplyDeleteI'm learning myself...a day is truly meant to be lived and prayed for.... one at a time. There' s really no other way to do it. And when life is hard, it takes all we've got to get that done. God is in control and He can handle it. We just have to trust him. That and a cute little creamer all to ourselves. :)
ReplyDeleteYou just need a big hug. I'm sure that their moving back was probably not even the reason. More of what happened to bring them back and their future. We go through this with our youngest. But the good thing there is,he doesn't have kids. You will be laughing again and glad that they are there. They have those cute single serve creamers that don't have to refrigerated. They would hide easier. (((((HUGS))))
ReplyDeleteIf you ever need to chat or vent, send me a note! Our daughter and grandson moved home just over 3 years ago. It's been challenging, heartbreaking, frustrating but at the same time, we feel great joy to have them here and are thoroughly enjoying the opportunity to be gramma and grampa on a daily basis instead of just seeming them here and there!
ReplyDeleteUh-oh. I am sorry for Jess that it didn't work out. I totally understand the very full house feeling. Ours is packed to the brim but yes we are blessed that it is only minor inconveniences from all this busyness. We could be all alone with no children underfoot and that would be depressing. See you tomorrow!!
ReplyDeleteEeek that header is so cute too!
ReplyDeletegirl I really admire you, and your attitude...Im afraid I would not be able to be that way, but I guess you never know until that time comes do you! you inspire me to be a better person!
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ReplyDeleteI wanted to let you know I enjoy reading your blog especially about the makerie parties and your art.
You were getting used to having some freedom so no wonder you are feeling frustrated. Make sure to carve out some "me" time for yourself.
Oh, Patty...I don't think you were being selfish at all. I think you were being HUMAN. When you are used to an empty nest and some freedom and alone time, it is very hard to have your adult child - especially with little ones in tow - back in your house. Deep breathing, prayer, and nourishing yourself is vital right now. Big hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteHello Patty I have been reading your blog for some time now but have never commented before. I live across the pond in England but I really understand how you feel. I so admire your honesty and I also love my family to bits but know what it's like sometimes to want to say "hold on a minute what about me!"
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